Mixed feelings.
It's the first time I have ever felt this way. Its the first time I felt so weird, so empty..., so blank. A part of me has already come to accept this day, this time, where I know it won't be like the past anymore, but when it is finally here... I still can't accept it.
This morning, I woke up at six thirty, disturbed by this very fact, this very feeling that I am experiencing, this loneliness that I have. After waking up, realising that I could no longer fall asleep, I have no choice but to turn my sister's comic series, Fushigi Yugi.
After hours of reading the book, I knew that it was not enough to fill the hollow in my mind. Still, I had to try.
Children of Mana.
Ninja Gaiden: Dragon Sword - Head Ninja Mode.
None of this could give me what I really need. It led me to my last resort. Studying Chinese.
Like heck that would work.
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I can't get used to the feeling that tomorrow marks the beginning of the June holidays, but I am NOT in a holiday. Every this time of the year, I would be grinning from year to year, getting ready for my stayover at my auntie's place, choinging games until I cry and yet, circumstances has led me to studying.
Damn.
Now, I feel damned empty. GIVE ME MY DAMN HOLIDAYS!
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*cries at a corner, trying to emo*
Later...
Taken by one of the magicians::
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