Sunday, March 10, 2013
The Fall of Single Feather...

Meritocracy

Ever since I was young, I've always wanted to be good at something.
Ever since I was a child, I've always wanted to people to say, "Hey, you're good at this. Whatever you've been doing, you've been doing it right. Keep it up."
Ever since I was able to achieve, I've always wanted to be recognised for my efforts; to be recognised for what I have done.

Along the way, people have said positive things about the stuff that I've done. People have shown me the appreciation for the jobs I have done for them, but somehow, it has never been enough. Don't be mistaken, I feel glad that my efforts are appreciated. But in a world where right and wrong is so damned blur, how the hell would I know if I were doing things the "right" way? Does a person's compliment justify the way I have been doing things?

I simply don't know.

Hence, I've always strove to obtain something on a higher level, something that everyone would go through but not everyone would get.

And recently, I did.

But the thing is, I still question myself if I have been doing it right anyway. There are people whom I felt deserve the same award receive it, and those that I feel better in terms of skill and prowess did not receive it. Should I be getting the recognition for my skills and abilities when there are those who are better than me? Does simply having a good attitude deserve an award such as this?

I feel lost. What should I really be thinking right now?

With Regards,


Taken by one of the magicians::
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